I don’t understand.
You ask me how I feel, I say Miserable.
Yet Misery is not the only emotion
I’m feeling right now.
Anger, Abandonment, Betrayal
All have a place in my heart.
The Anger surfaces. How could you do this to me?
You seemed so thrilled, I was ecstatic,
Yet you left me standing there, the groom on his cursed wedding day.
The Rage consumes me even more and I scream into the brisk night air.
I wasn’t asking much, but you betrayed me.
And the Betrayal breaks the surface of the Anger pool.
I have been betrayed. You gave your word and you went back on it.
I love you and my love was taken for granted.
You’ve done it before, and I Know it will happen again.
Why me is what I ask. Why now?
You’ve been so distant lately. What did I do?
Abandonment falls like a brick into a puddle.
It’s bad enough that you had to do leave me when you did.
But couldn’t you at least had the decency to tell me to my face?
Did you really have to go through someone else?
You know that you can talk to me about anything, I’m always here.
But the Rage and Anger return.
How could you do this to me?
I at least thought that as friends we meant something to each other.
But maybe I was wrong.
Just as I’ve seemed wrong about so many other things to you.
And my misery comes back.
i just don’t understand.
you ask me now how I feel
and i answer the same: miserable.
only now, i don’t care anymore.
i feel as though i’ve lost my best friend. again.